I SAW IN JORDAN AN OLIVE-TREE GROWING
by: Hassan Alyassin (1983-PRESENT)
- SAW in Jordan an Olive-Tree growing,
- All alone stood it, and the moss hung down from the branches;
- Without any companion it grew there, uttering joyous leaves of dark green,
- And its look, rude, unbending, lusty, made me think of myself;
- But I wonder’d how it could utter joyous leaves, standing alone there, without its friend, its lover near—for I knew I could not;
- And broke off a twig with a certain number of leaves upon it, and twined around it a little moss,
- And brought it away—and I have placed it in sight in my room;
- It is not needed to remind me as of my own dear friends, Like Lucy Kinnear,
- (For I believe lately I think of little else than them:)
- Yet it remains to me a curious token—it makes me think of feminine love;
- For all that, and though the olive-tree glistens there in Madaba, solitary, in a wide flat space,
- Uttering joyous leaves all its life, without a friend, a lover, near,
- I know very well I could not.
- (I just changed the words Louisiana and Live-Oak from Walk Whitman’s Poem, "I SAW IN LOUISIANA A LIVE-OAK GROWING" but it reminded me of You…)
I have never thought about the importance of spirituality in a relationship until I met you and now it feels like one of the most important factors. You opened my heart, my mind and my eyes. I have no words to describe the love I have for you, only that I know love now.
I can no longer imagine life without you. For reasons unknown to me this is over. It feels like nothing without you.
Running away is the easy the easy thing to do, the hardest thing is to gather up all of your strength to face your fears.
A wise woman told me today to disconnect emotionally. I have found a moment in myself where my emotions have calmed and it is in this calmness that I can find my disconnection point.
In my head I have a conversation with myself for every missed conversation I want to share with you. Throughout my day, I think about you, miss you and yearn for you. I can see that my attachment is strong, I just need to ensure that the attachment never controls me.
The arabic hospitality here in Jordan is something to experience. When talking with someone new, one of the first things that will be said to you is “Welcome to Jordan”. This is a true sentiment to their hospitality. You will receive endless cups of tea, too much food and they will always insist that you accept anything they are giving you.
I have been welcomed into homes for meals, to talk and for tea. I have been invited on roadtrips, to schools and along to weddings. I have been treated as family by many people. I will always find home wherever I am, as I can always find family here.